Not a big girl!

So this is my first attempt at blogging. It seems like everyone else I know is blogging about their children and I want to do it too. I can't promise it will be the most eloquent writing or even that interesting most of the time but it should be fun for me to try. We will see how it goes!

This weekend was a busy Easter weekend for us. Shay took off Friday and Monday so we had four days together which was so nice. On Saturday Mary Sewlyn and I went to our sweet little friend Anna Cate's first birthday party. I was so excited to take Mary Selwyn to a birthday party now that she is old enough to enjoy other kids and some of the festivities. Little did I know that the result of this birthday party would be a mommy with a broken heart!

Most of you know that Mary Selwyn is walking now. She has been walking consistently for about 3 weeks. She thinks she is so big as she just toddles around everywhere at just 8 months old. So at the party Mary Selwyn and I sit down in the middle of the floor and she immediately pops up and starts walking around the room and showing off. Everyone was so impressed, which I admit made me proud. However, when the children arrived and the party started all of the sudden Mary Selwyn didn't want to be with mommy anymore. She wanted to be with all the kids and in the middle of all the action. It was cute at first. Then all the kids ran to the kitchen to eat and I stood there in shock as Mary Selwyn followed the line, walked right into the kitchen and did not even look back at me. I had to run after her, scoop her up and explain to her that she is not big enough to eat pizza, she is not a big kid!!!

Needless to say she had a ball at the party, she played so hard and enjoyed the presents just as much as the birthday girl. When we left I was a bit sad. I called Shay on the verge of tears to tell him how she just acted like a big girl and how my heart was breaking over it. I realize this sounds so silly, especially to you mothers of multiple or older children. I realize that this is just the first of many times my heart will break when my child walks away from me. I realize that I will be even more broken hearted when she goes off to kindergarten, when she drives away by herself for the first time, when she goes to off to college and when she gets married. However, I did not realize I would experience these feelings so soon. She is 8 months old!!!!!! She should still be my baby, not a big girl. With every milestone we have hit it has been exciting, but I haven't been ready for any of them. I was not ready for her to crawl, pull up or walk so early because I knew that meant she was growing up and I was losing my baby. Everyone tells you that kids grow up so fast and they weren't kidding. I'm reminded more and more everyday to cherish every moment with her because she is growing so quickly. I know I just have to suck it up and be a big girl but I'm not ready for her to be a big kid!!

On the flip side the party did wear her slap out and my terrible little sleeper slept all night...maybe the one thing my "big kid" can give me to look forward to is sleep!!