I was actually able to sleep the night before, which was amazing. I popped up at 4 am and showered and got ready to go. I was shocked I made it through all that without throwing up from my nerves. Oh I was so nervous and emotional. I cried from the time the nurse came in and said we should start in about 3o minutes until I was actually laying on the operating table. The nurse was trying her hardest to keep me distracted and calm so she turned on the radio in the O.R. and of all things Linoel Richie was on singing "All night long." No joke. That is the one and only song I remember. Everyone in there talked to me the whole time, trying to keep me calm. I remember wanting to yell at them to all shut up and let me cry and pray. The worst thing you can tell me to do is to stay calm....that just gets me all worked up. I could have done a lot better if they would have all just left me alone...ha ha.
Anyway, as soon as they brought Shay in I started throwing up and continued to do so throughout the rest of the c-section. I think the magic words were, "It's a girl." I don't remember throwing up again after that was said, however, now that i think about it I'm pretty sure the words weren't as magic as I thought they were. It was all the drugs they promised to pump in me as soon as the baby was out. They will always be magic words to me and I can't describe the overwhelming amount of joy, happiness and love I felt all because of those three words. Not finding out what we were having was the best decision I made during this pregnancy. It was so exciting and so special. I would highly recommend trying it. It was fun to know our families were just waiting, dying for Shay to come out and introduce her. I wish I could have witnessed him walking into that waiting room and announcing our new baby girl and see their reactions. It was caught on tape but I know it is not the same as seeing it first hand. Not many people, especially our family, knew the names we were planning on using so that was a fun surprise too.
Our family and friends have been so sweet and they were all just as excited as we were. Can I just tell you that I have the best friends in the whole world. Brooke was able to be there for Adeline's birth which was very exciting since she couldn't be there on the day Mary Selwyn was born. Amber and Price have come to visit already too, all the way from Montgomery, and Mary and Megan surprised me and drove all the way to Dothan and back Monday night just to see us. They kept saying, "we don't know when we can come but it will be soon." Obviously, Megan had to work and Mary is like the busiest person I know so I did not at all expect them until the weekend. I was absolutely shocked when they walked in my hospital room. It was so sweet I wanted to cry but I think the first thing I said was, "Are y'all crazy? What are you doing here? You have work tomorrow!" Along with all our other visitors and calls I've been really overwhelmed by how much we are loved. I absolutely could not be blessed with any better of friends.
Life at home is going well. At the risk of sharing too much information I am able to breastfeed this time and it has been wonderful. With Mary Selwyn I lost too much blood and was so sick my milk never came in. I am so excited it is working this time. I didn't realize how much I wanted to nurse until I wasn't able to with Mary Selwyn. I absolutely love it, the only thing is it makes me sad that I wasn't able to do it the first time.
Adeline is such a sweet and laid back baby. Mary Selwyn was a sweet baby but she was a mover and shaker from the get go. She was very rarely still....not much change there, and she never stayed in that newborn baby ball like most babies do. Adeline is a very still, calm baby and loves to be all balled up in your arms or a blanket. She is precious. She looks exactly like her big sister as a baby. I often feel like I'm having deja vu when I look at her sleeping. Mary Selwyn is being the sweetest big sister ever. She loves to hold her and love on her. She loves to help her with her paci and does it very gently. She talks her version of baby talk to her. That mostly includes the phrase, "ooooo poor baby." Not sure why but it is sweet. Mary Selwyn has not been jealous or bothered by her baby sister's presence at all. She has overall been extremely grouchy though. Her mood has not been pleasant but she has been so pleasant to the baby. It is not at all how I imagined. I know part of it is exhaustion from the last week. The over dose of grandparents she is having and a slight case of the terrible twos. I have been a tad emotional, proud to say I have only cried four times in the last week, but two of those times have been over Mary Selwyn and my worrying about her. I think once grandparents leave, which won't be for another two weeks, since I've had a c-section and can't pick MSN up, and things settle down it will get a little better. The main thing is she is way better with Adeline than I would have ever guessed. She is a perfect big sister.
Here are a few pictures we have taken since we have come home. Adeline wore the same gown that I wore, all my siblings, and Mary Selwyn wore home from the hospital. Hopefully by the end of the week I will get the pictures of my two girls up so you can see just how much they look alike as new borns and I want to post the pictures of my nursery too. It is so adorable I can't stand it but I have one last project to finish in there now that I know it is a girl. It has been such a crazy and fun week. We are so blessed and I thank the Lord a million times a day for my sweet family. I love that I have two precious girls.....it is the best feeling in the world.....
Please excuse Mary Selwyn's play clothes....or lack there of....it has been a long week of staying home.