Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Not a big girl!

So this is my first attempt at blogging. It seems like everyone else I know is blogging about their children and I want to do it too. I can't promise it will be the most eloquent writing or even that interesting most of the time but it should be fun for me to try. We will see how it goes!

This weekend was a busy Easter weekend for us. Shay took off Friday and Monday so we had four days together which was so nice. On Saturday Mary Sewlyn and I went to our sweet little friend Anna Cate's first birthday party. I was so excited to take Mary Selwyn to a birthday party now that she is old enough to enjoy other kids and some of the festivities. Little did I know that the result of this birthday party would be a mommy with a broken heart!

Most of you know that Mary Selwyn is walking now. She has been walking consistently for about 3 weeks. She thinks she is so big as she just toddles around everywhere at just 8 months old. So at the party Mary Selwyn and I sit down in the middle of the floor and she immediately pops up and starts walking around the room and showing off. Everyone was so impressed, which I admit made me proud. However, when the children arrived and the party started all of the sudden Mary Selwyn didn't want to be with mommy anymore. She wanted to be with all the kids and in the middle of all the action. It was cute at first. Then all the kids ran to the kitchen to eat and I stood there in shock as Mary Selwyn followed the line, walked right into the kitchen and did not even look back at me. I had to run after her, scoop her up and explain to her that she is not big enough to eat pizza, she is not a big kid!!!

Needless to say she had a ball at the party, she played so hard and enjoyed the presents just as much as the birthday girl. When we left I was a bit sad. I called Shay on the verge of tears to tell him how she just acted like a big girl and how my heart was breaking over it. I realize this sounds so silly, especially to you mothers of multiple or older children. I realize that this is just the first of many times my heart will break when my child walks away from me. I realize that I will be even more broken hearted when she goes off to kindergarten, when she drives away by herself for the first time, when she goes to off to college and when she gets married. However, I did not realize I would experience these feelings so soon. She is 8 months old!!!!!! She should still be my baby, not a big girl. With every milestone we have hit it has been exciting, but I haven't been ready for any of them. I was not ready for her to crawl, pull up or walk so early because I knew that meant she was growing up and I was losing my baby. Everyone tells you that kids grow up so fast and they weren't kidding. I'm reminded more and more everyday to cherish every moment with her because she is growing so quickly. I know I just have to suck it up and be a big girl but I'm not ready for her to be a big kid!!

On the flip side the party did wear her slap out and my terrible little sleeper slept all night...maybe the one thing my "big kid" can give me to look forward to is sleep!!


Mitzi said...

I am so glad you are bloging! Can't wait to see all of you.
Sorry about the message about Monday; it hit me later you were staying over.

Amanda said...

Yay I'm so glad you have started a blog. I will definitely link yours on mine. Blogs are such a good way to keep in touch. And now I can see your cute family! Mary Selwyn is a doll!
Amanda Bowen Owens

Ashley said...

You are a very good blogger! Such insight from Denise on motherhood. I do hope that you get good sleep though! Miss you!

Mary Sanders said...

Denisey!!! How precious!! I know doesn't it make you so sad!? Now you see why ended up pregnant so soon after Ross! looking forward to this weekend!

Courtney said...

So excited to see a new blog! Mary Selwyn is precious & I am sure it is hard to watch her grow...I know I will feel the same way in a few short months. I hope all is well friend!

gran & granpa said...

our sweet granbaby is growing so fast, but think how we feel that YOU were our sweet tiny baby Denise 26 years ago!! We love you all so much. This is going to be fun, and you did a good job with your first posting.
Gran & Grandpa (aka Mom & Dad) lol

jane said...

welcome to the blogging world!
i can't believe your baby girl is walking already!!!

Lindsey said...

Ok, so I tried to comment earlier, but could not b/c I do not have a blog. Well, I do now so you may check it out! You have inspired me. And I may have questions a/b how to do some of this "stuff".
Anyway, so I realize I don't have kids, but I totally get where you're coming from with the big girl stuff. Jaylee and Tanner might as well be mine and Jeremy's and we always talk a/b how they grow up too fast! Jaylee always did everything early like Mary Selwyn is seeming to do, so you may have a genius baby on your hand. That's what we always called Jaylee!
Ok, well this was super long so I think I'll quit typing now.

Mandy said...

I love that you are blogging! We do it too. You will have to check it out some time. We need to introduce Ollie and Mary Selwyn. Love you
Mandy Moody

Katie said...

Hey Denise!
It is Katie Mac! I am so glad that you are blogging! It is a great way to keep up! Long time since I have talked to you. Your family is growing so much!


Robin said...

So excited you are blogging. Now I can keep up with what you are doing. Love you and such a cute story. Robin